I’m an adult now, or so I hear.

So many things have been going on lately. More and more events or moments that scream, “You’re becoming an adult.” Now, I’ve been legally an adult for four years but considering I was in college for those four years, I never truly considered myself an adult. Sure, I made my own decisions, however, my parents still pay for everything I do. I’ve never paid for my phone bill, my car insurance, my apartment rent OR utilities or even college tuition. I am BEYOND lucky for not having the stress of money put on my back in college. I know my parents stressed about it, but they never let me worry. As long as I performed well in school, they would take care of the rest. Deal of a lifetime, I know! They always took care of me, as I’m sure they will in the future. However, in three months, after graduation, it’s all on me. It’s up to me to get a teaching job, it’s up to me to pay the bills and it’s up to me to do everything for myself. I never realized how much of a brat I sound like, until now. I had this realization today when I had to call the landlord because my garbage disposal wasn’t working. Come to find out, I had somehow let a measuring spoon get into the hole and it caused the entire thing to break down. (I was SO embarrassed that I had caused this minor thing and made my landlord drive all the way over to help.) But I handled it. Just like I handled my two flat tires this summer (I’ll admit, I called my dad crying before handling it.) Just like I handled a tough work situation in January and just like I learned how to go pay my rent and bills on my own. It’s all happening so fast but with the push of my parents and the drive I have, I know I can do this. I know I can find a job and I know that I can do all these things in my own. How scary is it to grow up?! 😦 ❤